This Feeling Inside

This is such a beautiful, comforting, happiness abounding, safe place to be! I would trade it for nothing more in the world! You hold me captivated in your embrace each time I have a chance to wrap my arms around you. Just for those few split seconds I experience the warm feeling of being lost in a moment of time where I feel I belong. I continue to pray, longing for more moments such as these with you. This feeling, which I cannot fully explain because it's overwhelming in depth, has me bound to a deep satisfaction in who I am, when I'm with and even when I'm without you. It is a feeling that makes me smile from the inside out, and I cannot erase it from my entire being, this beam of complete fulfillment! It is wonderful, and at the same time a bit of fearfulness that the contentment could possibly get lost, and knowing that if that happens, I would never dare to adventure into that realm again, the one where I hope. So, for now, I am just enjoying every minute I have to share in your company. The magnetism is so strong, that I wait for the very next time I will hear your voice, oooh that sweet sound. :) It is so soothing, and I remember it clearly in my mind as I replay what you've shared with me, and also fantasizing about what has not yet been spoken . Those thoughts linger in my mind day to day, and there are those words that are just dying to make it to the surface, exposed for you to hear and hopefully fully comprehend and accept. It's that place of simple wonder, wondering if you feel the way I feel, and thinking the way I think, and vice versa. I wonder if I feel the way you feel, and whether I think the way you think. Only time will reveal the truth. And, that truth is what I long to find out. What will that day bring once that truth shows itself? I pray that it is nothing but gracious good for each of us, as I believe it's more than time for something good to come out of a life we both (hopefully both) have longed for but have had no previous luck in finding. But, maybe it's fate that brings us to this place. I have always been skeptical about fate. If it were to work out that fate's hand is in this, I will definitely be a true believer after this long, excruciating wait of patience that is deafening to my soul!! I do want to believe in the possibility though. Even if for right now, it is ever so slight. Because for how simple this is, there is a complex story behind that simplicity. I just want to say what I mean to say, and hopefully you hear what you long to hear, and believe what we both so long to believe in our hearts, that it will be true with no underlying pretenses to be found anywhere - EVER! Please help me to believe, as I'd like to help you believe the same from me. Hopefully, we're almost there. We shall wait and see. And, for now, longing for your touch to gently caress my weary soul to the very depth of my being, which makes me shiver with delight to the point where the light leaves my body through my eyes as if a wonderful story has been told that leaves us both feeling we're at the exact place we both belong, wrapped up in each other, and feeling assured when we're apart. You are the reason I smile, and (you are) one of the very best things that God has brought into my life. For I am beginning to see the things that I have lost and now found, and things I have not yet seen in anyone else before, that I see in you, which pleases me to the point of a cheerful tearing of emotion. Thank you for everything that you are, and everything that you still long to be. I am so grateful for you. And, that brings peace to my heart, including the smile that I cannot seem to rid myself of. :)